Hey all, it’s been quite a while since my last blog but things have been kind of- “interesting” around here. I’ve had some serious personal issues that demand attention before they get worse. Some of you know what I’m talking about. As public as I like to be some things are best kept private but I’m sure one day I can look back at this time more positively and share it. Life isn’t something you can hide from and the past never goes away unless you deal with it. As much as I try to pull ahead the mistakes of the past hold me back, but I’m a survivor. It’s what I’m best at. Life’s always thrown shit at me and I find a way through. I get called a weasel because of my uncanny knack for getting into and out of situations. In the meantime I continue to work on building my career as a writer. To date I have three books in print and my work has been published in independent magazines. Yes, I’m still working on that novel, too. I also have another poetry collection and a sci-fi thriller that are taking my attention. What’s cool is my book “A Wolf in the Shadows” just sold another copy on Amazon and people are hearing about “Musings”. I was part of the Motor City Art Expo 4 last November and one of the artists I was talking too had heard of me. That was pretty cool. I know I haven’t been online much or been as active on Facebook or MySpace lately (or this blog for that matter). I’ve been without an internet connection at home lately. It’s not that I’ve been unwilling to write all of you, just unable to get online as much as I’d like. I’m happy to inform that such things are improving. My piece of crap RAZR finally died on me and I got a new phone that has Windows Mobile and a full high-speed connection to the internet 24/7. Therefore I am constantly connected to all instant messenger programs, my e-mail, and everyone’s favorite social networking sites. I’d like to leave you with the foreword I wrote for the next poetry collection I mentioned. It IS 4 AM after all and I’m getting sleepy.
Life is comical at times. Just when you think all is well, along comes the next shocking moment. Sometimes you find yourself at a crossroads; other times at a dead end. The trail we follow is the result of the choices we make in our lives. Sometimes we turned right when we should have turned left. If you find yourself going in circles stop and think. Is there something you are not learning on the road you travel? Or are you repeating the same mistakes? Learning and growing does not stop after graduation. Life is a learning experience, the ultimate journey. From time to time along this path we share it with others and this feels good, but each of us is on our own path and so it is that most of the time we must travel alone. I realize now the cost of the choices I have made in life. Sure there were plenty of mistakes, but I’m only human. In the time since releasing my first book the mistakes of the past have come back to teach me about humility and arrogance. Also, as I look back at the course behind me I see afterimages of friends and loved ones who once shared my journey and have now moved on down their separate trails. I don’t regret the choices I made, that would be pointless. I can’t go back and change it; all I can do is accept responsibility and learn from it. The choices I have made and their results, good and bad, have made me who I am today. Those choices are so knotted together that even if through some miracle I could change anything it would be akin to cutting off my arm to save my leg. All I know is when I reach my destination I will be the man I was meant to be, with the legacy I was meant to leave behind. I won’t try any longer to be a great man, instead just a man and let history decide for itself where I fit in the grand scheme of mankind. If my path does cross with someone special again perhaps we could sit together under a sunlit sky and share the story of our individual journey. For even though we all have a unique destination, the journey is easier and more pleasurable when we share it with someone we love.
© 2008 R. Wolf Baldassarro/Deep Forest Productions
